25TH Anniversary

July 3rd was our (would have been) 25th Anniversary. It's been a crazy weekend already because Pat is in the hospital. On the way to Church that morning I was doing good until I heard a new song from Ashley Perry "5 minutes". yes..the whole time I was listening to the words I thought this would be a song for the end of life and sure enough that's the way the song ended. Husband saying goodbye at bed side to his wife. Had me choked up. Composed myself as I met the in laws for Church and then once again "Be Not Afraid" was played and it all came rolling back. It's just those moments. I went to his grave and visited, talk and cryed and like usual I go away more at peace because I know he wants me to be happy and not sad. This day along with seeing a his favorite "Teddy bears" shirt that Steph gave him when he was sick was placed at his grave site: Worlds Best Dad... I didn't know she had placed that out there. All those days that he was sick you couldn't tear that teddy bear away and I still smile thinking about the time I grabbed the bear by his head and Mick told me not to be mean to his bear. ;) Soon 2 yr. Anniverrsary of him being gone will be here. Can't believe that it's been 2 yrs. I pray every day for God to make the days go fast and he's done a great job in doing so. Maybe one day I will find another reason for things to slow down again; but for now moving forward helps the pain of him being gone.