Today's appt....

It's the 19th and the day we have dreaded. Went for Ct scan and to see Mick's Dr. again to discuss surgery dates. Dr. Ryan said he spoke with 2 more neurosurgeons and a retired neurosurgeon who was in practice for 30 years and majority of his work was anuerysms. They all said coil and stent and shunt; that was done and now they said there they have lost hope.(their words not mine). As much as he dreaded saying it ;it was what it is because things just aren't improving and he doesn't see it improving in the future. He also said we are now getting to a dangerous point with him. The large anuerysm is continuing to fill. The Dr. asked Mick if living the way he is now is worse than death and he said yes. After discussing other items about how things have been the Doc said he would like to do surgery the week after the 4th that way he will not be on call and he can focus on Mick. The retired neurosurgeon will be assisting. He still needs to verify with him if he's willing to do this and set up dates with Radiologist. We all know the chances but he's not living and this is what he wants. This is God's hands and if we have the Dr. looking out for Mick and not what a "code of ethics" would be that's what we need. He said if we go somewhere that doesn't know him or us they will push keep trying the coiling,stenting although it's not working because they do not want to be the one to deal with the outcome.That's all I have energy to say tonight. Sorry, I will let everyone know when I know more. Let me be clear Mick wants Ryan and has always even before he was incapable of making decisions to do this operation.This is the one of the hardest decisions we have ever had to make and I know there will be no win win situation.