Father's Day

Tomorrow everyone will celebrate father's day. A day that I have thought of so many days ahead and wondered how the girls were going to deal without having their dad. Surprisingly Stephanie wants to get something and put out at his spot. I say that because up until now she didn't want to talk about him at all. Amanda is suppose to work but was just told she changed her plans because she wants to do something. Then there's Jess who said she wants to pretend it's not a holiday at all. My heart breaks for them. I have hurt so much and miss him so much for my own reasons but days like these along, with missing graduations, future marriages, births and etc. are going to be so hard on them. I hope they know even though he is not here with them he is in spirit. He is standing right beside them what ever they do and smiling that smile he had. The tilt of the head and a crooked smile because he didn't like to show his teeth. Oh how I miss him. My heart, my soul he was my love. I wish for the girls to remember on this father's day all the memories they had with through their life. They can hold onto those and know in time Father's day is still a positive thing because after all; without him we would not have had them.