Needing a Miracle...

Nothing has changed with Mick. Same vitals that fluctuate and same reflexes but unresponsive to any tests that they do. Dr. A. will be out of town until Sunday afternoon. Dr. Ryan called today and said Dr. A had called him and he agrees that 2 week time is more than enough time for a positive result which we have not had. He also said that waiting past that is going to put Mick in a state where he did not want to be. Talked to another one of the Neurosurgeons before we left the hospital and she said they always have hopes for their patients but sometimes reality doesn't follow through. With all this information given unless a Miracle happens by Wed. we have to decide what the next steps are; which is to take him off life support. My heart is very heavy once again. Like everyone else who would feel this loss I am having a hard time with this because I just don't want to let go. Mick and I have been together since May 16th, 1985 our Senior year in high school. I can't imagine life without him and having to think of the end is not what I want to do. I keep waiting for him to wake up and tell me to "get off his back" because he went farming, drinking, or whatever it might have been. Funny how things change because in our "adult" life recent words of "Where have you been" or "What took you so long" is what I have heard from him. Now missing and wishing I could have all the laughter and tears back; and I would take everything back and he could hunt,fish, and whatever he wants to if he comes back to us. Miracle is what we need...lots of prayers for a miracle...for him to come back to us to walk and talk and do his stupid dance at the community building that is so embarrassing to anyone around. But, how we will all miss that if a miracle does not take place. Unanswered prayers is def. not what we want but I know God has a plan!